You posted on June 8 that you do smoke it and feel that it helps your schizophrenia. If you have quit smoking it since then, that's great. I just think it's worth considering all of your threads, as a whole, when you are trying to get to the bottom of what is going on in regards to the dolls, hate words, etc. You also have several threads about why you think its better not to take your meds, which is why we are wondering if, perhaps, you are not taking your meds (or not taking them as prescribed).