So I got a letter in the mail on Saturday saying that I am being kicked off of my Medicaid on July 31st. I feel like I have worked really hard for the stability that I do have and now the rug is being pulled out from under me. I don't have a therapist or a psychiatrist, and now it's just going to be that much harder to see my nurse practitioner who writes prescriptions for my bipolar medication and my birth control.

My plans right now are to try to get an appointment with my nurse practitioner before the 31st to talk with her about weaning me off my meds until I can reapply for insurance in November for next year.

I also decided that I am going to start using my calendar obsessively to get on a stricter schedule, like what time I go to sleep and wake up. I'm going to try to stay busier in the day until either school starts or I get an email from the company I do temp jobs for saying I've been assigned to another project.

Please, guys, any advice can help me. I don't want to lose my sanity again. My husband, my parents, and my friends don't deserve that and I don't want to put them through that again.