I can TOTALLY relate to this. I certainly could tell you all the stuff my therapist has told me

I.E. If you had a child, and there were in your position - would you advise them to self harm?

But, I will also be *real* enough to acknowledge that at times - logic can not prevail...... that the ONLY thing that keeps you safe is to do something that in your heart-of-hearts you *know* will do nothing to help you. It is just giving an excuse to self harm.

I have used that excuse many times myself. I have "failed" many, many times. It is my hope that you find a **better** way of coping.

EITHER way - hugs of support to you.