it's so hard ProudlyPersevering, it truly is. Sadly, at the end of the day it's your decision whether this relationship is good for you, or harming you. If it is more hurtful than benefit, the decision is whether you should stay that close. In the long term, you're not going to help them if the relationship has worn you down so far that you get ill too. It's such a hard position to be in and I really feel for you, but you are the only person who knows what is right for you. I can't advise you only send all the care and hugs I can. You at the end of the day are a good and precious person. Be kind to yourself too.