Yes I do have hobbies and I also would like to read many of the classics, but it's hard for me to focus when I'm anxious or depressed. I also have found myself deeply regretting the past. Looking back I see signs that I was having problems in my teen years, socially isolating myself, not having very intimate relationships, but I think my parents were just glad that I wasn't a problem child, they never thought, nor did I, that this might be a problem now or perhaps later on. I went to school ten miles away from my house in a completely different town so I didn't get to see my friends much on the weekends or during summers.