I've been flashbacking hard, or I always have, but lately, it's just coming at me now that I can put a word to it. It's not traumatic ones, but more of past experiences and people. It's like I don't know these people and places, but yet....familiar?

They aren't in video format, but snapshots of a distant past. Faces I can't put a finger on.

Of course there are them OMG! moments that I just want to die over.

I'll sit and stare at the ceiling and flash flash flash. Even when driving they happen so much that I'm a distracted driver if not a tranced driver, it scares me.

Even in the middle of the night at 2-3 am, if we aren't chatting, other memories are oppressing me so much it keeps me awake. I usually get up for an hour and focus on tv till I feel tired again.

I just wish it would just stop because it doesn't make any logical sense, for as soon as they flash in, they flash out. Only ones that leave a deep impression sticks, like I see one of a long curly dark haired women laughing in a concert t-shirt, about mid 20's...it feels familiar...but I just can't time and place it. Makes me wonder if it's even real, but it feels real.

It wears me out. No wonder I drink a lot. :/