its hard to say what her degree of interest is, she seems to think about me alot...
but she is very busy with work, recently promoted and brings her work home with her so i dont talk with her every day as we used to...
she emails me when she gets time (or she says that)

the truth is that she was having an affair, not with me... but with me...
she was cheating on her boyfriend with me (i didn't know)

but when we were together she told me that she left him because he was very abusive...
when i learned the truth that she was still seeing him it killed me inside, i dont know why she was still talking to him even...

its been a few years now and she's moved on, been promoted and is staying in a new city away from all of her trouble making friends

the lack of honesty is pretty much what ended everything, after i found the truth out she started withdrawing from me...
she also got the new job around that same time so she started being very busy...
she works for a bank but im not sure what her job is... before she was the person you go talk to to receive a loan or whatever

i've always had strong feelings for her and devoted myself full heartedly to her from the beginning...

i dont know if she pities me or if she still has feelings for me, its hard to tell because we dont talk that much... when im available she is busy, and when she is available im usually sleeping (stupid medicine...)

so i dont really know what to do, i know that i want to keep my friendship with her even if we cant work things out...
but my heart wants to try, i miss her greatly and ever since we broke up i've had a void in my heart

i would really like to ask her these questions but im trying to wait for the right time and i dont want to make a mistake and cause some more problems between us

thanks for your replies...