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Originally Posted by AnaWhitney
Thanks for this info! I hope you don't mind me asking you this, just that you said you also have problems staying grounded when discussing it, are your original memories clear? Mine are not and I'm wondering could there be a link between this and the dissociating when it was brought up? I can't really understand why I would do this when I keep doubting myself. I hope that makes sense ?
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I understand completely! I am constantly doubting myself too, which I posted about recently.
To answer your question, my memories are very spotty. Not just about abuse. I have very few memories from childhood. Regarding CSA tho, I remember the setting, what the room looked like, sounds, smells. In a few cases I remember pieces of deeds, but not always. It's like a movie but from my perspective. Most of what I remember are the feelings. I remember the anxiety and panic and then the poof! nothing. I remember nothing more. So far, nothing fills in those blanks...and I don't think I want them filled in. I used to want to dig. Thought about hypnosis. But now, knowing what I do know, I shall leave well enough alone.