Oh my, I have this problem too. On here I'm always worried that I did something wrong. I have worked out with one IRL friend that I can always ask "ok?" and get reassurance. That's the only IRL friend I really have had in my life a long time and am close enough to that I need the system. I used to get panicky and pick fights when I felt insecure. That wasn't working so I worked on it in therapy for a long time and got better at handling it. But I still wonder "why didn't they answer that email? What did I say wrong? Did something I did in the past come up and make them angry? etc." to the point I considered quitting PC last week and backed away and didn't post for about a week. But eventually I decided to try again and the anxiety is better now, at least for the time being. If there is actually proof that there is a problem, which there was on PC, I really have no idea how to cope. So I run away and hide and don't sleep and have nightmares. It's something I still have to work at and probably always will.

I understand. I have no answers but I understand.