I've been having some violent urges, which I solve by cutting myself, although I know that it isn't the best way to cope and I live it a hot area, and when I work it hurts because of my cuts. I feel it's either hurt myself, or someone else, which is what one of the others wants to do but I don't want to get in trouble. And sometimes I just want to see some blood. I also believe that if I cut myself then I can get the poison out, because I didn't want to starve myself just because my food is being poisoned. I know it is a delusion but I have a hard time not believing it.