I i feel like i could have writtien this myself i have been in exactly the same situation for the past 8 months i cant say i have gotten better but i have gotten more used to it. I try and take it day by day and find just even one small thing even tiny thing that is good or kind and tell myself there is hope in this world and try and look at the bad things in this world and be thankful i have a roof over my head and acess to clean water. that is just what helps me get through the day but you need to find your thing i kniw it is hard but please try.