I've been having a great time on the 10mg Zyprexa prescription. I was expecting it to come with at least a few awful side effects based on all the reviews I've read, but so far, nothing. And it works. My symptoms have cleared up almost completely, only a few mild and brief little things once in a while. And I had also thought that, even if it does work and has no major side effects, then I'd probably feel numb. But nope, I can still enjoy things just fine. Life is just easier now, in a lot of ways, but I'm definitely not numb or like a zombie. I sleep about 8-9 hours per night and wake up refreshed. And consequently for me, I haven't felt like posting on peer support forums as much. I'm just going through life feeling like I don't even have BP at all.

But I was wondering last night, am I just extremely lucky, or do most online peer support communities for mood disorders, consist mostly of treatment-resistant people?

I hope nobody takes this the wrong way, I'm not saying that this place is full of whiners. What I'm noticing is that a lot of people on forums like this one seem to be struggling to some degree, moderately to severely, despite being on medications or having tried medications in the past and then quit them. I feel like an oddball, because I was posting and lurking here a lot while waiting for medication, but then I got it, started feeling gradually better and then felt like, "Whelp glad that's over" and went off to do life.

So I wonder if others feel the same when meds work, like if they feel less inclined to post on peer support forums when they are doing well, and if so, does that mean forums like this one, might be concentrations of treatment-resistant people with mood disorders?

In other words I'm wondering if many of you fall into a secondary category as far as dealing with ****. Like if many of you not only grapple with a mood disorder, but also with being treatment-resistant.

What do you guys/gals think? Do you think many of you are treatment-resistant? Do you think this is worthy of specialized treatment (or research for it)? I do. If there is a significant subset of people who don't respond well to meds as far as eliminating symptoms without major side effects, then I think it shows that there are more types of mood disorders or something in general than recognized.

Right? If I have BP1 and respond well to Med A, and you have BP1 and don't respond well to Med A, then we have different things going on in our brains that cause our symptoms, yeah? (Does that make sense?) Pharma has figured out how to treat my symptoms, but not everyone's. But the med is the same. Which indicates to me that "treatment resistant" is a horrendously lazy way of really saying "unrecognized additional disorders we can't treat yet". Even if the disorders all fall under the same subset.

This got long and rambling, sorry, still need my morning coffee. But, whatch think of these notions?