Hi.
Just wondering if you have any sort of diagnosis that you are willing to discuss on here?
Marijuana is addictive for some people, but the larger majority don't have much of a problem with it.
Can I ask do you often do spur of the moment, impulsive things? You come across as sort of a "spur of the moment" sort of person
I don't know your age though. It sounds like you could do with some more support.
I'd like to offer advice, but don't know enough about your situation
Oh and your NOT horrible or stupid, not from what you have said anyway.