Thanks, breadfish.

I feel pretty defective and unfixable and broken right now. I'm also self critical about how I feel and where I'm at. So I appreciate you saying those things. irl don't believe I'm helping anyone feeling the way I do, I'm to busy trying to keep myself together moment by moment to offer others much support.

I'm just tired of switching between feeling too much internal turmoil and feeling apathetic about life.