At this point I think it would be wise to consider a med overhaul and do a damn detox.


Its not like they're working if moving off the couch makes you feel suicidal, so really. What's the point of taking them and rejecting the idea of a med overhaul?


You are on so many meds its possibly exacerbating your symptoms. Yes, that's a thing, where ADs can make you suicidal and APs can make you hallucinate.

Since you're on so many, you have NO way of knowing if meds are a contributing factor to you being down the crapper.


I know you love your pdoc (a bit too much because you listen to him blindly) but really, ask him if he would be comfortable taking all your meds and watch how he obviously pulls a face.


Some people probably need to be a walking drug store, but since that's clearly not working for you, I strongly suggest you talk med overhaul.