Hey Niki! Life sometimes feels like you're banging your head against a brick wall, doesn't it? I know.
I've been doing alot of that lately. Having two episodes a day sometimes. When I went to see my counselor the other day I cried all the time I was there. So hopeless feeling and TIRED of being in this miserable BRAIN!!! I think that sometimes the world would be better off w/o me in it!!!! I get that way when I'm having alot of episodic modes. Stress seems to bring them on, that and personal
problems. I am trying to combat that with alot of walking and shopping(window) and things of that nature. I karaoke twice a week locally and play when a band needs a drummer. I can't work outside my home because of my condition. Employers do not understand bi-polar or its effects on people. I learned that the hard way!!