ok....I want so much to "allow" myself to be angry, but I can't.

When Steve was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer in September he was 179 lbs. After several surgeries and the standard regimen of chemo, he is down to 149 lbs. Yes, he definitely looks skinnier than he did. I checked his BMI, and he is at the 21.9 range which is still considered average weight. He's even scheduled for colon resection surgery July 24th. I am sure the surgeon wouldn't schedule the surgery if his weight loss was too serious an issue.

WIthin the past week, his sister and his best friend (2 separate occasions) told Steve he needed to go home with them so they could fatten him up. I was standing alongside him both times. Am I a good cook? nah....I can do the basics like chicken, pork chops, pasta, etc... I don't "withold" food from him. He didn't even take up for me like "No thanks, Dee is trying hard enough".

I don't want to be angry because that would be selfish...right???????