I went back on them this morning. I was scolded for "forgetting" my meds yesterday, and my meds were increased greatly, with another one added. Yay. Since the meds give me normal energy, waking up at 3 and doing all I did made me tired so I had to take a 3 hour nap. I have to take 5 pills tonight and if that doesn't knock me out then there's definitely a problem.

This morning was definitely fun though! But I'd rather be out and "normal" than threatened or place in IP. I'm just one level below it at the moment being in PHP.

And yes, I did threaten my mom, but that was when I was on Abilify I believe, and it turned my mania into a serious rage. All my meds do now is make me tired.

Psychosis is a pretty big part of my mania as I always hear voices and slightly hallucinate, even out of episodes, which make me susceptible to psychosis. All my mania end up with me not sleeping for days as I prepare to go into the government's elite team, or something similar to that.

Anyway, I'm back on them, but I don't know if I can stay on them knowing that the sweet energy is just waiting underneath. I will try to remind myself that while manias are fun, it's best not to mess with fire.

Thanks for all the concern guys, it definitely helped me make the right choice.