Mars:

I agree with you about therapy. It doesn't hurt ANYONE... I'm just starting this whole thing and it's a little bit overwhelming. Like jumping in the deep end, not sure if you can remember how to swim...

I'm so sorry that you went through all of that as a child. No matter how many years distance there is between then and now it still doesn't get easier. I think maybe you're a little like me and just dissociate....I stuff it down and just don't think about it. Now I don't have babies to keep me busy, they're all in school and it's hitting me like a ton of bricks!

My mother was also mentally ill. Still is. She suffers from DID, major recurrent depression, bipolar, drug addictions, you name it, she has it. Still I think coming from a family where brain disorders are pretty prevalent, people do have to be held accountable to a certain degree for their actions. What I mean is just because your mom was schizophrenic doesn't mean she had the right to do those things. That was one of my problems. The guilt for hating my mother, because of something that she can't control. But to an extent she could. It's just all so complicated...I'm having a hard time letting it go.

I've rambled long enough. But wanted to offer you

big (((((((((((Mars)))))))))))) hugs.

Take Care.
Kimberly