No, I've never had a dream about Heaven. At least not yet... I have extremely varied dreams. I have never heard of RTS, but it sounds distressing.

Sensitive guys are the best ones! Most women admire a guy who can openly show his feelings, such as crying, and I am one of them. And no, you aren't a loser! All of your problems can be addressed and rectified. You can get out more, gradually, of course, you can see someone for your mental limitations, although I don't see that at all in your posts. You seem to be well-read and articulate. You can get help with your weight too. A low fat diet works wonders. I lost 42 lbs. a few years ago. But fear was the motivation, I have to admit. I had extremely high cholesterol, and that motivated me. Apply for jobs! Anything will do for now, until you can find something better. The key is to get up and start taking baby steps toward a more independent life, which women find attractive. God bless you parents for allowing you to live with them. You sound like a nice enough person, and there is someone for everyone in this world. I'm not just trying to boost your spirits, I'm stating facts.