I don't fully understand what was happening to me at the time of the separation and divorce. I was so detached, far away, not grounded and panic stricken and afraid of everyone and everything. That is why I got into counseling.

Bottom line is if you don't look out for yourself, no body else will. And if you are in a position of being in a fragile emotional state, you might as well dig a hole and bury your head in it, because nobody understands and they don't care

As far as going back to be compensated. I don't see that happening. I don't even know if I signed my life away. My atty drew up the papers and I signed them. Everything was such a mess then. My son was out of control. My life was out of control. My x was the only one living it up, traveling and parties. And I was the one he beat up. Doesn't make sense. But life doesn't always make sense. I just feel his day will come. I learned the hard way, "money talks"..