I do feel like a burden. One of the key reasons is that I don't pay to see my t, it's a free service (yes, I'm very lucky to live in a country with free national health care). She gets paid a salery regardless of whether I'm there or not.

I feel a burden to her and the organisation. I've been there over 2 and a half years, and am still falling into crisis after crisis.

No one wants a suicidal client.