Hey guys I'm wondering if this is the right place to post or where to search for help.

People told me everytime they see me I have a different personality, I had to agree with them and the worst part is I am not bothered with it and I feel it's the natural way. Sometimes I'm plain tired or strung out and can't perform 'myself'. I don't have a self, my own life or personality, I can't pin down in words who I am and what I do. Often I respond in ridicule, or take a roll of a famous person, or imaginary fantasy person. I like playing like that, I think everybody should once we're done with what 'needs' to be done (work, school) and I can't imagine a better thing to do; I don't feel there's anything that needs to be talked about or is better to be talked about when in reality there's simply too much.

I've had some development issues and I'm not sure what my life was supposed to be, now that I'm 'young adult'. I feel if I picked the most 'casual' personality and used it all the time, I'd still be role-playing, I feel like every person's personality is fake. I am becoming a complete introvert, I rather keep in what could possibly shock people around me. I am estranging myself from common shared reality and it goes exponentially, the weirder I am the less opportunity for normalcy I get

I have some hallucinations, so I post under sz forum, but I think this has to do with disassociating myself.