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Originally Posted by AuroraBorealis75
I don't think I have romantic feeling for my therapist, but I am filled with so much gratitude for her. She is gentle and kind and affirming. It's taken a long time for me to trust her. I don't trust people easily. But she just seems to know exactly what I need, and I have gotten comfortable with hugging her. I only have a few months left of therapy, and I find myself wishing I could be friends with my therapist. I'm not ready for her to not be a part of my life anymore.
Even though I don't think I have romantic feelings for her, I think I am a bit obsessed. I think about her every day, and I miss her intensely in between sessions. I've also looked her up on Google, and found out that her dad died a little over a year ago, just before I started therapy with her. I feel so bad that she was going through such a big loss. I feel like she shouldn't have had to listen to my troubles when she was/is grieving such a big loss, and today I just thought she seemed kind of sad. I just feel full of compassion for her, and I want to tell her that I love her and that I'm sorry that her dad died. I want to hold her in my arms and comfort her the way she has comforted me. But she doesn't know that I know, so I can't say anything about it to her.
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I could have written most of this myself. I feel the same way about my T as you do. I told my T that I loved her and it just made my attachment more intense to the point where I feel like I was borderline obsessed with her. (Not in a lifetime movie kind of way thought) I had an emergency session due to a crisis I was having and I said it to her again and she said "I love you" back to me. That was one of the best feelings/moments of my life. I could tell she meant it and she felt the same way. She won't say it directly to me unless I am in crisis because she says its more reserved for her personal life. So we both decided to say "I have love for you" often. Its like our own special way to say it. Maybe if you tell your T that you love her if she is not comfortable saying it back maybe you both could compromise and say it in a non direct way.