Its okay at least I am not offended. When I am manic I almost completely stop eating and when im depressed I overeat. I am also pretty big. You need to count how many calories you eat and how many you burn throughout the day I think its the rmr+activity = breakeven calorie point. Try to set a number of calories to eat per day maybe 500 so over a weak you lose one pound 500*7 = 3500 = 1 pound.