My Psychiarist didn't push the issue of the job today at the session, she believes that my stomache problems could be related to anxiety.
The fact that I'm being pushed to work and the anxiety is becoming too much to the point where it is stopping me. The reminders of not working or the schooling isn't helping, and she thinks once that stops then the anxiety for jobs will start to go away knowing that I can look for a job when I'm ready.

Does that make sense? She said once I build up my self esteem and confidence then that will make it easier. This pushing is putting me in a negative spot and I have to focus now on what helps me out.....

[censored] I cannot remember how she put it now i'm kicking myself in the *** for not writting it down...

A job for me is a means to and end ... I don't care about "careers" I don't need that to keep me happy, money is not important to me. When I get a job it'll be for extra money, and that's it pretty much. A job is not who I as a person....yes it's a job that would provide me with money, yes it's a goal to not have to be anxious.

Does that make sense? A job doesn't make a person, usually..... so this is what we came to as a conclusion.

I have no idea if anyone will know what this means, but this is what happened.

I'm feeling lost for words right now and don't know what else to say... ARGH, might have to call her backa and ask her again.

It has to do with values ect, what I value most and it's not a job, even though it's nice to have money, but does anyone know where I'm going with this?