I just have to try again, for another week or two. MH nurse always motivates me, so too does my t. But I it's limited, it lasts a day and then wares off. This time it lasted a few hours andmI'm back to facing the drag of another week. Safe for a while with a small amount of hope, but worn down and feeling like I'm just treading water. Sorry for all the posts, it's just such a helpful distraction from my feelings.