Thank you for reading my post and for taking the time to reply. Yes, I have a therapist. I've been in therapy for a year, now. I've never done something like this before and I don't know if I will do it again, but I am afraid to tell her because I don't know what would happen if she knew. The last time I saw her, Monday, she was highly concerned for me. Frankly, I was in such bad shape I was shocked that she allowed me to walk out of there at the end of the appointment and I remember thinking, wow, this is so unreal, I can be this bad and still no one cares. That's how it feels. That is why I've put "weary" in my name here. I am so overdrawn and it seems like no one can see how empty I've become and people still keep asking more and more of me when there is nothing left to give.