Thank you, everyone for your kind words.
I'm sorry I didn't reply faster, I just literally needed time away from everything.
So an update..
I was kinda getting better.. I dunno, but the last 2-3 days, I was just hyper most of the time. I felt happy for no reason.. could be my mania, but I dunno, it usually doesn't last for that long.. anyhow, I tried being productive, trying to do what I can at the moment. That isn't going so well though.. especially when I went to my university today to ask about a few things, and I realized that I have some huge debt to pay off?
I knew I had a debt, but... not so big.. it's more than the double of what I thought I had.
And some of the people there were telling me that they're going to expel me, not just because of the debt, but because of some of my unfinished classes.
I am transferring anyway(which means I'm gonna NEED to expel myself from my current university anyway.. I know it sounds stupid to "expel yourself", but it's the rules over here.) but I dunno if this is going to affect my transfer in some way or another..
I talked to my sister today but I didn't mention any of it to her, because I've already put my family through enough. I heard my dad's gotten worse since the last time I talked to them.
I am trying, really, but there isn't much I can do.. technically, there isn't anything that I can do..
I'm still trying to stay positive though.. I doubt it will last for long, but I'm trying. Really wishing for a miracle, it feels like it's the only thing that can get me out of all of this... :/
Well, anyhow.. I wasn't planning for this to go on for so long..
Thank you all so much for your support and care once again.