yeah, that anger is coming from somewhere... it's significant... maybe... and this is just my interpretation... maybe the thoughts of possibly going without T are indeed, very upsetting to you... but you don't want to deal with those feelings because you are doing better... so rather than have to feel all of those feelings, you just get angry at him instead. It's easier. Believe me, I know. Then you are mad at him, so you think... hey, why not take a break from this guy? It becomes much easier to leave if we are mad. I suggest exploring your anger with him before you take a break or do anything. Something's stirring up inside you.... express that to him.