Well T called my home last night. What is wrong with me. He did not call for me. T has done a lot of family therapy also the last year and I have one son that sees him every once in a while. Well I guess my son called and left him a message - I am very proud of son (he is a teen). So anyhow T called him back last night and he wasn't home so I talked to T a minute about son - well what T could drag out of me. I was like - he isn't home, I guess he is alright, I was rude to say the least and then when we hung up - I was angry at T again - what is up with that. I think I have snapped. I don't know what is going on with me. All I can think is jerk jerk jerk - please help me, I want and need you. AAARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!