Ty. I am a little better...weak from all the crying last night, but fairly stable. Just in a lot of emotional pain still.

I called my new T last night. I was supposed to if my coping skills weren't enough to stop the urges. She called me back today and I got to talk to her for 10 mins. She told me my goal today was to get up and take a shower and to try to do one of my hobbies. I'm still in bed trying to figure out how to get myself into the shower. Sad, really. Anyways, she said she's here for me and I can call again if I need to. It's nice to have the support, but I'm also cautious because I could lose her too for some unknown reason. So a part of me keeps my distance to protect myself.

But the good news is that I didn't cut. One day down...now to conquer today.