Why is it when I think I might be seeing the light at the end of the tunnel it seems to get farther away from me. I am still on this up and down rollercoaster and now I feel that it is getting stuck on a down swing. More negative thoughts enter into my mind and I can't seem to shut them out. I think sometimes that I am not trying hard enough "to feel" better and sometimes I am just to tired to try. I am sorry to ramble on and will stop now. Thanks for listening.