A rush of memories. My thoughts maybe scattered, but bear with me. Electric being cut off. Standing in line at the women's center for a bag of food and the holiday free "turkey" . Co-worker taking me to the shoe store to buy me a pair of shoes for work. My son applying for free lunches at school.

Please don't get me wrong. I appreciate these services were available when I needed them. And it is not the fact that I feel I am "too good" to have had to ask Catholic Services to help pay the electric bill or apply for "free wood" for the wood stove for heat for winter. The fact is my atty did a crappy job. He protected the x husband. He didn't care about me or my son's welfare. So the x lived it up big time.. while I struggled. This is when a "fair" financial settlement was needed. Not now, when my son is grown.

Too much is flooding my mind right now. Am not sure if I am saying clearly what I need to say. I can say yesterday is gone and today is now. Those extra pressures on me were "needless". A man with all the money he had, and he put me and his son through hell.....He didn't even call or see his son. And he lived 3 miles from us.

ok i am done......... can't go there anymore..... time to focus on today.......

Thank you Patty, freewill, bebop and Dee for your comments. I appreciate each and every one here

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