I know what you mean to some extent. I have some maternal transference for my T and really like her as a person and a T (though not to the same extent as my marriage counselor). Yesterday I was talking to her about feelings of depression

I told her I felt bad telling her some of the stuff because I didn't want her to feel like she'd failed me or that she wasn't helping. She said that therapy isn't about her, and that it's sweet that I'm concerned about her feelings, but it's more important to be honest. I've also felt bad talking to her about how connected I feel to MC and how I feel like he really "gets me." I'll be like, "You're great too! And I hope it doesn't bother you when I say how great he is." And again, she'll say it's not about her.

I hold back some in marriage counseling, but that's a combo of not wanting to share some things with my H and not wanting to share some with MC. I did feel really bad about him finding out the stuff I was recently talking to my T about (that's under the trigger warning) because I was afraid he'd be disappointed in me.

Hm, and I really like my p-doc as a person and p-doc, too, and I keep feeling bad when I tell her a certain med isn't working for me.

So, yes, I can relate!