I'm not going to type a whole lot because I am really tired right now, but you're story of ADHD is very similar to mine, especially with the good grades, and being in the gifted program. (sorry for the run on sentences) I had to start with anxiety meds before I got my doctor to prescribe me adderall for adhd. (Diagnosed at 23... My bf actually had been trying to convince me that I had adhd and I denied it for a long time until I finally crashed and couldn't even function anymore - which is when I finally admitted to myself that I have it and should seek help) I really don't want to take anxiety meds because I don't like being hateful, and the anxiety meds made me hateful (I only took them for 3 months before I couldn't take it anymore and stopped). I am hoping that I don't have to take them ever again because I believe everything that is going wrong is caused by something else, and anxiety is just a product of it - not the cause. Anyway, that is my little bit. I really want to get properly evaluated for all and any possible mental health concerns, though, so that I can prove myself to people. I just can't afford the cost to see a psychiatrist for a full evaluation.