Hey guys,

I am currently in a relationship for nearly 5 years. Just recently I noticed my boyfriend has been very distant. He spends his time away from work watching random YouTube videos almost endlessly unless his friend invites him out. I confronted him about it and he attempted to push me away. I asked him if it was his wish that I end the relationship. He said he didn't know or to do whatever I want. He feels that I would be happier with someone else. When I denied this, he asked why, he wasn't worth much. Eventually, the conversation led to him saying that he doesn't feel much of anything. I clarified it by asking if he was numb inside, he said yes.
My heart just sank. I felt I should have picked it up ages ago. He has been irritable for a few months, but I thought that once his job had stabilized, things would resolve. It hasn't and has more or less gotten worse.
I asked him if he's considered seeking help. He said it wasn't an option. He has had bad experiences in his youth with "shrinks". He will refuse antidepressants due to them making one of his friends' depression worse to the point his friend committed suicide.
I'm at an utter loss on what to do from here. I don't know what to say. I told him that I'm worried and he told me not to as he is too proud to do anything drastic (suicide).