My depression started 10 years ago when my brother committed suicide; 6 months later my Mom died from cancer; and 2 months after her my Dad committed suicide. My husband, of 14 years, couldn't deal with my depression. He mostly ignored me and used me for several years before leaving me. I was so depressed that I stayed at home alone for about 3 or 4 years. I rarely saw or spoke to anyone during this time.
Now, for the past 3 years, I have been going out and trying to socialize with friends (old and new). But I am finding that, for the most part, I am being rejected by almost everyone I come in contact with. They are polite when I talk to them, but they do not make an effort to talk to me or include me in any of there
lives. I am left out of all social events, never invited to social gatherings, etc. I had a Christmas Party two years ago and no one, (not one person) showed up.
I am taking antidepressants, and I always try to be in a good mood when in public, however I am still rejected. My Depression has caused people to reject and avoid me, and their rejection and avoidance has caused me to continue to be more depressed. It is a never ending cycle.
I’ve been trying for 3 years now, and it’s hard to change people’s attitudes after they have “labeled” you as being a certain type. How can I end this cycle? How do I get people to change their views of me? I am very lonely and sad because of this.