I had a strange experience the last time I went to therapy and it was most counterproductive. I left and just wanted to get high, so high. So I did. I went on a 3 day bender. It culminated in my husband telling me I need to get it together or go stay with my mom because I was out of control. (He didn't know I was high). I say it culminated there, but the truth is I ran out of drugs. But it was my plan....to do all the drugs and then move forward towards sobriety and getting my **** together. I let him know, 'well, sorry, I was just spun out and it won't happen again (because its all gone!)'...IDK what I am looking for here. Just acknowledgement, encouragement...something. Tips on how to make this sobriety thing work. I mean I can't get more, but that doesn't mean I won't find another self-destructive behavior to engage in....hmmm