Hi guys

I've been off the site for quite sometime because I thought I was doing well. But as usual, I've hit a wall. I've always struggled with personal relationships/friendships, but today I can't take it. In therapy I'm always asked/told to open myself up to going out and meeting people, but most times that's out of my comfort zone and I remain in my bubble in the comfort of my living room. I finally decided to put myself out there, but with few friends I do have, no one can ever commit to plans with me. It's so frustrating!!! I suck at making and keeping finds and feel rejected all the time. At work I can be a social butterfly, but in the real world I'm a social pariah. What gives? Please tell me I'm not the only one...