I am there....have been for a few weeks.....and I am just trying to enjoy my life while in the ever-elusive "stable-land"

For the past 18 months or so, it has been a living hell...I've been all over the friggin' map from one extreme to the other multiple times and truly wondered if I would ever level out again....

I have realized that my 'base-scribble' (Sorry Capri, I stole your word because I love it and think it is so apt) is mildly depressed.....I have some physical issues and just life-circumstances that are difficult to deal with even in stable-land so mildly or very mildly depressed is actually pretty ok.....

I saw my new pdoc on July 7th and he prescribed a very low dosage of lithium (I know, I know....toxic koolaid).....I can't take normal therapeutic doses because of some other medication that I am on, but we are hoping the lithium levels me out.....I have been on it long enough now that I am seeing some positive results....now, if I just won't go toxic!

I said all of that to say this to all my beautiful friends here in PC land who are struggling with the extremes of this terrible BP world......please hang in there....please know that there is hope even when it doesn't feel like it at all...

As my friend ~Christina so succinctly points out....the one constant about this bytch is that she cycles........she always cycles....

Hugs to you all, and wishes for a 'good' day....or hour....or minute!