Do you have OCD? I ask because "Magical thinking" is a symptom of that and doesn't mean you're making up your past. It means that you think your thoughts cause things to happen. For example, you are thinking angry thoughts about someone and then you worry that your thoughts will cause something bad to happen to them. Or, because you don't keep your house tidy enough, something bad will happen. (I have OCD, and this was one of my symptoms as a child, less so now, which is why I know this.)