Yeah, it can be harsh. Sorry to hear your being treated like that, as you've been through so much already.

I've just started to get myself back out after depression for years.
Others do shy away once they start to know me and they learn about my depression and sickness. They are all nice, and do try to invite me to events and parties and such, but due to the way I am now, I cannot do what they can without risking a severe episode, which I fear further disconnects me. I always have to decline, or bail out, and we disconnect, as I can't participate in what they spend time doing. I feel they stop talking to me because they are either afraid of upsetting or dont know what to say, as we just cant relate much anymore.

Sometimes I feel I have to just pretend it doesn't exist to be able to talk to anyone, but I can't hide from the truth.

Even with my best friend I have known since elementary, I find that I can't seem to connect with him anymore like I used to. We can only seem to talk of the past... It seems as if we are too different now after what has happened, that I can't carry on a conversation, even though we both are trying... We have different priorities now, most others are thinking about college, friends and careers, while I am stuck just trying to keep myself together it seems.

I've been putting myself out in crowds, in groups and forums on the internet and especially once I got here, I finally feel I can again find those I can relate to. There are a lot of people out, if we can find each other, and i can for once not have to be so fearful of how much I reveal of myself in front of others.

Depression can change so much, I'm not the person I once was, but I'm trying to make new connections now, and its helping.

Catch me in the chat rooms, as I frequent these, if you want to talk less formally.
Though I will be going to Oklahoma for the next few days so I wont be around till i get back.