(((((((((((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))))))))

First of all i'm really sorry for the loss of Zippers .... i'm sure that is not helping matters at all right now

Secondly, i wish SO so so badly that i could take away even just a little bit of the pain that you are experiencing right now. I hate to see you hurting so badly

Please don't appologize for being you. The fact that you are YOU is what makes people here (especially myself) love you so much. And this "you" that you are ... well don't give up on her. Fight for her. Work with your T, with your chaplain, with whomever because she is worth it. You are worth it plus so much more Christina.

Don't worry about crying .... crying is the body's way of expressing emotions that clearly are being built up inside you. Don't deny them .... holding back your tears only makes things worse than holding them in.

Please try and take care of yourself. If not for yourself, do it for me. Do it for your boy. Do it for all the people that care about you. Take things one step at a time. You can do it, i have such strong faith in you Christina.

PM or msg or whatever if you want to talk.
Sending gentle hugs and love
Jacqueline