I'm feeling so hopeless/annoyed/angry/hurt/confused by my husband - and the worst of it is I don't even know if I'm being totally irrational or not and I have no one to talk to about it (i.e., to give me a reality check)

I want the person I'm with to be my best friend, to WANT to be there for me, to know HOW to be there for me. I don't want to have to tell him I'm upset AND give him step by step instructions on what he should and shouldn't do about it. I want someone who, when he sees me hurting, responds with comfort and companionship like an automatic reflex, like my pain is his pain. This is how it was in the beginning, now I just feel like a burden or a broken record - always one step away from going too far by needing too much.

No matter how many 'talks' we have about this issue, he never seems to get it. He is such a sweet and kind person, but he just has no idea what this is like and it's so hurtful that he puts no effort into understanding it better (I mean, you can lead a horse to water, but...) I just feel so unbelievably lonely and unimportant and hopeless. How can I stay married to someone who is so willfully oblivious to such a huge part of my experience?

And to think; things were going just fine only a few days ago...now all I an think about is running away