Hi!

I need an advice or at least an opinion. Because I don't know who am I.

Before everything, I must say that I have GID. I'd talked with a lots of psychiatrists and psycholigists for help, but my country is very closed. Literally, one ofe them tried to exorcise me. I know, sounds crazy, but that stuff really affected me, because I entered with the resolution to "keep going, I'll gonna help ya", but that was false.

For my luck, my momma tries to exorcise me too. She says is open-mind, but can't with me. But, recently I found a psychiatrist who recommended to speak - in this case, write - about this.

I've feel happy with crossdressing and even trying to talk like opposite sex, but, because my surroundings and family, I'd live as my sex neutrally. I'm afraid to live a lie, or even to being neutral, but, I can not choose because my confusing and represive "home". Somehow, I can live as my gender, but I feel kinda "not great, just like everyone".

I'm hoping that soon I'll start my life solo, but I need advice or opinion respect my "little" problem. I feel vulnerable with this, but I really want a word or encouragement.

So, what's your opinion about this? What part of I is true?