Sitting in very busy waiting rooms for an extended period of time is hard enough for me, seeing a medical dr at all is even harder (feeling of loss of control), but today took the cake. I have never really liked my MD, but I don't have much choice right now. Today, I visited him for the first time in over a year for a severe sinus infection, ear infection and bronchitis. He KNOWS I have PTSD, panic, anxiety, depression, etc and today, I reminded him 2 times. He really caused an issue for me today, and I'm not sure what to do about it. I know I can't go back to him again. All was fine at first with the exam, chest x rays, etc, but then he grabs my head from the side without saying a word while the nurse was talking to me, and sticks that darn light thingy up my nose. SERIOUSLY HE GRABBED MY HEAD FROM THE SIDE UNEXPECTEDLY. I immediately panicked and froze. When I came out of the panic, I got really ticked off, and shut down and got kind of sarcastic with him. Now, sitting here alone, I'm in tears, and having flashback troubles. I don't know how I should address this. I know I can't go back there again, EVER. I just don't have a lot of choices right now with my financial situation. Even if I asked my therapist to talk to them about this, I really think it's too late for that, I don't think I could drag myself, even kicking and screaming, back there again. I was supposed to go for a follow up in 10 days, but I just cancelled that appt. If/when I need to see an MD again, and still don't have another choice, maybe the ER would be better? I don't like using the ER for non emergencies though. Anyone else had a bad experience like this? How did you handle it?