elin, I am so saddened to hear that you have no one in your family that accepts being gay. It is a shame how gay people are treated.

That is why I am so encouraged when I see people here on Psych Central come out of the closet of denial, not to family, work, church and friends, but to the people here on Psych Central. Here you are accepted for who you are, not your sexual preference. You are you, and that is what is wonderful about being a member here.

Of course, I am not trying to say you won't have challenges, but why try to explain something that people you know can not understand? Wait until you are more solid in your identity, financially independent, emotionally secure, and worked out the toxic attitudes that surround you with a therapist or other method.

The LGBTQ chat is on Mondays at 7pm-8PM EST. This is a great place to be yourself and meet others facing similar challenges. http://forums.psychcentral.com/calen...=2015-7-27&c=1

I have wanted my parents to accept me the way I am but as they approach their twilight years, I can see that it was too much for me to expect them to understand. I lived on the outside as they wanted me to be, but my inner life and online life is rich with who I am. Maybe down the road, things will be different, but I have chosen discretion over confrontation. It has allowed me to be more peaceful.