I only started self harming less than a month ago. The first time I had a pair of tweezers and I didn't even draw blood although the resulting scab took two weeks to heal. Now I have other things to cut with and I've drawn blood on myself. Not very much though because I'm hiding my depression from my parents and I know that I can't afford to leave physical evidence of depression on my body. Is that still valid? I feel fake saying "I cut" or "I practice self harm," because I still have control over it. So. I don't know. I feel like I'm not even good at being depressed. I hate myself so much that I injure myself and I can't even do that well. Honestly I don't know where I'm going with this post. I'm basically rambling I guess. Sorry.