It is still "valid" if it is hurting you and you sound a lot like me I started with tweezers anyway this is not about me you really should tell someone while you still feel you have some control over the situation I know it is a super super scary thought but tbh once people (parents in my case) know and they are over the initial shock it is so much less stressful not having to hide as much. Also then you can start seeing someone to help you feel less depressed.